today B the day...

i have a hangover. and no, not of the alcoholic nature. of the scrapping nature. now i know.. any non-scrappers reading this ... you just don't get it. it's like this. you feel creative. you sit down in your studio to create something. yes, you sit down at 11:00pm. you create. and then it comes on stronger, and you create more. you create create create... then you say... holy SHIT! it's 3:00AM. so you leave the studio a disaster... a pathway out the door. and you go to bed. you wake up a few hours later, because it's still the work week and you've got one more day to put in. and you physically feel.. hungover. you even have the shakes! woah. need coffee!!!

so... TODAY is THEE day.. We B will annouce their online/kit club/design team!!! i don't think i have a shot in hell.. but i did it anyhow. check out the gallery here... http://www.webscrappin.com/forums/PhotoPost/showgallery.php?cat=516
the suspense is REALLY killin me! i mean REALLY!!! so anyhow.. off to get some much needed coffee and then pretend to work for most of the day... it's going to be tough, but i will pull it off somehow!

happy damn friday!


my little artiste...

can life GET any better than this? or cuter for that matter?

life is good. today.

we recently underwent some troubled, trying times as new parents. a fluke of the flu with our girl, led us into a tailspin of tests and doctor visits, and more tests in the future. i don't quite know how i was able to stay so positive throughout the whole thing, and battle the flu myself, and still come out on top. i mean, our children are supposed to be perfect, right? perfect. no deformities, no anomolies... a word i have SO grown to hate. i have been angry. i have questioned God. i have questioned the goodness of people. and then it happened. that whole pay it forward concept.

you see, i reached out. to strangers. not something i normally do. but it's these group of "strangers" that have felt more like friends to me than many tangible friends have ever felt. i belong in the scrapping community. it's just where i am meant to be. it's a world free from judgement and full of praise. praise for being creative, for being honest, for offering advice. praise for just being you. i reached out and it was given back. i received phone calls, emails, posts when i went MIA for a few days. even a client of mine reached out to me, as she hadn't heard from me in a few days. unbelievable. pure goodness. like my blog page.. scrappin goodness.

i've questioned God for most of my life. simply because so many good things have been taken from me way too early. before i was ready. before those taken.. were ready. i just question it. but as i get older, i am beginning to see.. there is reason in all of this. considering the life i have had so far, the childhood i experienced, statistics would have me being an addict, a criminal, an unfit mother... but instead.. i am SO completely the opposite. i have stregthened in adversity. somehow. someway. and now.. i am beginning to truly believe in the power of prayer. i do not go to church, probably never will. but i do have my own relationship with God. and you know what... it's ok. He gets me. and somehow.. people have prayed enough for me over the years... someone is really looking out for me.

so.. wow. long blathering, deep, emotional stuff today. a bit much for a tuesday? maybe. but you know what? "i believe the heart of life is good..." so get over yourself!


pre - easter happiness for a new momma...

Long, blathering post of just a typical easter eve for a new momma....

So, today started off a TAD too early for my liking... with my girlie waking at FOUR AM!!!! so, we headed downstairs, momma snoozed on and off, and when I finally "came to" she had destroyed the living room. toys from one end to the other and every spot in between! but the squeeze and a "awwww...i missed you momma..." was so totally worth the mess!

we headed to the zoo this morning for brunch with the easter bunny. met my favorite brother and his family there. WOW. amazing. we went last year, very low key, not many people at all. PHEW! this year was nuts! i would say well over 125 people... food was great, we got goodies for the girlie, all the girls, momma included, got our faces painted! how fun is THAT? and you know.. i remarked to my SIL.. i don't ever remember doing that as a child! had a great time at the zoo.. kennedy noticed SO many things, made tons of oh so cute comments... including.. "kennedy, what does a fox say?" her response: "OH MAN!!!" (thanks, Dora!) we didn't stay long, as it was about 28 degrees and started snowing! APRIL PEOPLE!

she was asleep before we hit the highway. we got home, and all three bears settled in for a loooong pre-easter nap. we all woke up around 5:00 wondering where the day went!

out to get eggs. BAD momma. tried to get them yesterday, but the droves of people at the store freaked me out and i made a u-turn in the parking lot and came right back home! today was no better. not only are new yorkers rude by nature, they become ignorant during the holidays when out in public in grocery stores. and did i mention rude? i mean some woman was actually blathering on at her handicapped, old mother in a wheel chair, ARGUING in front of he eggs! hello??? do you a$$holes not KNOW it's easter EVE? takin your friggin argument away from the eggs people! LORD! some days, i HATE NY-ers.. and i'm one of them! finally get my 2 dozen... on home...

My FIRST TIME coloring easter eggs as a MOMMY! I guess I didn't know we needed vinegar!??? All I had was red wine vinegar, so we had to borrow from a neighbor.. it was SO last minute... but what did i know? the last time i think i colored eggs, i was prob 10??? what a BLAST. i think my girlie KNEW something was up. she was getting SO excited. not to mention, she got to sit in what she calls, momma's big girl chair at the kitchen table. daddy got all the colors ready, while we dried the eggs and got everything else ready. we took 36 shots of the adventure. some of the BEST comments out of an almost two years old:

  • wow! it's sooo fun!
  • ooohhh.. pwetty colors momma...
  • i do it.. i do it...
  • nother one, nother one...
  • oooohhhh.. amazing... (said when we pulled the first egg out of the dipper)

then on to decorating them...momma loves her some bling, and i had just bought some cheepie self adhesive blingy flowers.. brought those down... my child is an ARTIST!

  • oh momma, so beautiful!
  • look... is so pwetty... pweety flowas!!!
  • ohhh, amazing.. it so bootiful!
  • so fun. thank you momma. thank you dada.

she rocks. undeniably the most brilliant child i have ever known. unreal. we then put out carrots for the bunny and a special egg for him. she sampled some carrots first and said "yeah, good for bunny momma. really good." she played, pooped out quick, and was back in bed by 9. then momma got to work...

assembled the easter basket of all easter baskets. filled some eggs for the "bunny" to leave in a trail from her room to the easter basket. all the while i'm thinking.. this kid is gonna grow up and have the coolest holidays ever... her momma just loves this stuff so much. i commented to daddy a few times today.. i'm SOOO glad she turned out to be a girl... this is just too too fun.

so that's about it.. can't WAIT for tomorrow.. to see the looks of surprise at all the goodies.... i am sure i will have a more emotional post about it.

till then.. sleep well and have jelly bean dreams.

ciao and hop-hop!



i am trying to rid myself of it. emotionally, physically, mentally. it can creep up on you and get inside.. and you've no way of letting go!

confused? in the words of my honorary nephew, Noah.. "let me break it down for ya..."

YOU are the only one that can control your own happiness. I have learned this the hard way. it is not my friends that control it. it is not my husband. it certainly is not my coworkers. IT'S ME!!!

When I surround myself with toxins.. food, people, situations, i tend to let it grab hold of me, and then have trouble letting it go. i deal with this on a daily basis with work, mental.. which then i attack myself physically, food... and you see how the circle goes.

so, this year, i've come to a better place. for the first time in a LONG time. i am in control. i'm not letting the personalities get to me. everyone is in charge of their own happiness. i am not the keeper of anyone's but my own. i've been in a good place, so far this year. good things are happening. and i am finally learning to pay it forward. my new motto for the year.

so, i really have no earthly idea where this deep waxing philosophical me came from. but put that in your pipe and smoke it.

one of my FAV sites had this quote today.. .maybe that's what spurred it on...

"Cherish forever what makes you unique, 'cuz you're really a yawn if it goes!"-----Bette Midler


twenty on tuesday

ok, so i've lacked in the blogging consistency, i know. but LIFE happens. get over it. i will do my best to do better, etc etc etc.... so here goes it...

  1. once again, i feel like crap. was sick most of last night. oh well, story of my life. i better get over it.

  2. the sun is trying SOOO hard to come out. but i understand it might SNOW this weekend? hello, people.. it's effin APRIL!

  3. need to go back to bed.

  4. kennedy is rockin out the make-believe world. playing with her "guys", making them eat, making them kiss.. it's too cute.

  5. i cropped with one of my most favorite people this weekend.. the woman just rocks, and half the time, i don't even think she knows it. i always get a ton accomplished when she's around...

  6. my bedroom is CLEAN. like walls scrubbed, dust bunnies gone, kind of clean. all thanks to my sweet, sweet hubby.

  7. my office is a mess.. again.. this time with piles of bags of items that will make up, quite possibly, THEE best easter basket EVER for my girl...

  8. we are going to have brunch with the easter bunny saturday.. can't WAIT... and then a day at the zoo!

  9. coffee is good

  10. missing meds is bad.

  11. monday night tv sucks ass.

  12. is anyone reading this crap?

  13. i'm so not creative today

  14. why are you still reading?

  15. see number 3.

  16. see number 9.

  17. i miss my best friends.. joaney and allison

  18. today, i WILL get a TON accomplished

  19. maybe i need a shower

  20. oh hey... i won a RAK at "A Fancy Word for Simple!" YEAH me!

Happy Tuesday.. now go make it a GREAT day!