i've made some new "friends" and lost them just as quickly. it's all a matter of learning where to fit in and going with your gut instinct and just not trying so hard. i've never tried to fit in until i became an adult... and i've quickly learned - it's quite stupid to try. if you can't be accepted for face value - then those folks aren't worthy of your friendship to begin with. i've learned - it's ok to be alone sometimes. my best friend is really all i will ever need - even though she is 1000 miles away - it's ok. she's here - everyday - no matter what is in my bank account - no matter how i look - she knows all my secrets and loves me just the same. endlessly.
i'm looking forward to this year with a fervor. i will be my scary age for this decade come may...35.. and it scares me but i have to admit, i'm a little excited for it too. excited for a year (hopefully) of no hospital stays, no surgeries, no major illness discovered. it's been a long 5 years in that department and i'm SO ready for it to be done.
i am meeting with a weight loss doctor on the 3rd. i've never had "issues" with weight. never been a "dieter"... but in the last 12 months - my weight has REALLY become an issue. i know i can control it and lose it. i just have finally realized i can't do it alone or unsupervised. it's beginning to cause some health problems and that is NOT a matter to be taken lightly. i know medication has a BIG affect on it all - but i am to blame as well for living a sedentary lifestyle. it ends this year.
i think there will be several big changes on the horizon for me. perhaps a new job? perhaps a comfortable, stress free financial future? all things are 100% in my own hands. i have to make it all happen. so - join me on the journey and see what's to come in the future. i'm REAL tired of going back through my journal entries and reading the saddening, bitter rants i'm so accustomed to. it's time for change.
so come on 2008 - come into my world.. it's gonna rock here.
she has the most amazing attention span. and is a GREAT conversationalist.
not to mention she is quite the artist.
oh - and did i mention she's only JUST turned 2 and a HALF? I drew the tree - she painted around the lines... without being told how. she's brilliant. or maybe it's just me. i've never known a child her age to have such mad skills.
look at the concentration. yeah - she's getting a rockin art set from Santa this year. i've got a feeling he knows.
back to being crafty. i've been on a roll for days.
going to see the big guy in the RED suit tonight. can't wait! pics to follow!
as she says so well AND in sign language now (thanks Sprout Channel) - HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
so - sometimes - it's as simple as this. listen to the song "fidelity" by regina spektor. watch the video. poof. inspiration. i mean look at the colors? wow. i was a creating mad-woman last night. stayed up till 2am.. have a scrappy hangover today. but it's all good in the hood. happy humpday.
started of the weekend with - NO LAUNDRY! because people - I have maintained the piles for an entire WEEK! phew. what a relief. Saturday - I taught a little project to a group of 10 12-13 year olds at the birthday party of my sitter's daughter, anna. this girl is just about the coolest 11 year old i have ever known. she's not only just adorable - but the most polite, proper, thoughtful, appreciative tween i've come across yet. says please and thank you - yes ma'am, no ma'am... unreal. I helped her mom throw a scrappy/stmapy birthday party. helped - meaning - i designed and created her invites, party favor bags, and the project itself. (photos to come later). It was a HIT! The girls LOVED their project and i really think they all had a blast!
and THEN - I came home - and HAPPY MAIL.... 601 GREAT SCRAPBOOK IDEAS HAS ARRIVED PEOPLE!!!! I CRIED! how stupid is that? i mean i actually had tears opening the box! thanks FWPubs - you made my MONTH! what a way to start of the holiday season... a great sense of accomplishment and the words - "honey - i'm really proud of you" coming from the hubby. pure scrappin goodness.
sat. eve we tooled around in the living room - trying to rearrange to accomodate a christmas tree. we've got this long narrow living room - our furniture is too big for it - and it always felt stifled. poor flow - poor energy. well - i think we nailed it. we rearranged - cleaned and LOVE the feel of the room. hubby keeps saying he feels more "at home". it's great. now if we can only agree on a tree. :) we then tooled around looking for a tree. i am *trying* to compromise this year - and we are getting a fake tree. though i can't compromise to the price of the damn things! holy cow! so - needless to say - no tree as of yet!
sunday - was my god daughter's 3rd birthday. she was adorable. so cute and petite... and happy to see us. she LOVED the UGLY DOLL!!!! snuggled right up with it like a pillow... LOVE it. it was great for she and kennedy to play together. they do so well together. they are 6 months apart (kennedy younger) so they have just about everything in common right now. got some great shots of them just being with one another. warmed my heart.
spent the early evening - you guessed it.. looking for a tree. so far we have been to K-Fart, Target, Lowes, Home Depot, Hafners, Christmas Tree Shops, & Michaels. Would you believe.. nothing! BUT - i did manage to get the cutest little nightlight - it's one of those old-fashioned bubbling lights with a little santa hanging off the side. was ADORABLE. Kennedy loved it...
today was day two of the advent calendar... i think she might actually remember to look in it tomorrow for a goody.. however - i am having a hard time buying little treasures that will actually FIT in it... so some goodies will be hangin out... but it looks even cuter than way.
so - this weekend was a down right - just plain good - weekend. full of goodness. full of warmth. and i just hope it carries on.
have a merry start to your week.