December Daily - Day 24

December 24 Prompt – Everything’s OK What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? (Author: Kate Inglis)

i'm still waiting for it. i am not writing this for sympathy or woah! everyone! look at me! no. not at all. writing it in the hopes it just reaches one person. i've had a pretty shitty, almost, decade. and i've written about this several times before. but here it is again.

when things seem to be not going your way, one will often say, "hey! but i've got my health!" yeah. not so much. i can't say that. since i turned 30, it's been one issue after another. grave's disease, surgery, fertility issues, surgery, pregnancy (praise GOD!), surgery, pancreatitis, gall bladder issues, surgery, sinus issues, surgery, breast issue, surgery, sinus issues again, more surgery, asthma diagnosis, pneumonia, bronchitis, one thing to the next.

the latest? another auto-immune disease that leaves me until february before i can see a specialist. a rheumatologist. so many possibilities being thrown at me. i'm just holding my breath and waiting to see what they tell me come february. in the meantime, i'm in loads of pain. i feel downright shitty, but am trying to keep that to myself too. and persevere. as always. and wonder when it's all going to be ok. because i haven't felt it yet.

peace and be good.