i have another secret. i've got to let it out. i can't hold it in any longer. i had an affair. that's right. i'd had enough. i felt cheated. i felt taken advantage of. left broke. SO I CHEATED ON MY HAIRDRESSER! she'll be upset - i'm sure. but i'm broke. trying to save my pennies. since the 10th grade - i had colored my own hair becuase in was in the 10th grade i found my first grey hair. 10th GRADE. when i got my first part time job in 11th grade, the first thing i spent my first pay check on was a visit to a salon, where in 1988 i spent $100 getting my hair cut and colored. stupid then. but a truth was learned. you DO get what you pay for. and i always visited top notch - pricey salons from then on out. spending $90-100 today doesn't seem like a ton to me to pay for someone to give me confidence - cut my hair just so so that you can't tell i'm prematurely balding - or is it called female pattern baldness? who knows... seriously though - my hair is super sup-AH thin... BUT - it's time to cut expenses. so - tonight - i saved myself about 85 bucks - and i must say - my hair looks pretty damn skippy. i'd take a pic - but i need to charge the batteries for the camera - and quite honestly - i'm too damn lazy.
in other news - don't know if i mentioned. i joined WW three weeks ago. i did this seven years ago - and it worked. but you've got to work it. and workin it i IS! i feel great - today. tomorrow may be another story - but today - well - it was a good day. my scale shows me down about 7 pounds. saturday we will know the REAL #. i've got to keep this up. for the first time in YEARS - i can actually picture myself thin. not skinny - not going for that. but thin. shapely and thin. i've never pictured it before. for years - i've pictured myself as that frumpy mom who never leaves the house without some sort of sweatsuit, bad hair, sneakers, and no sense of fashion whatsoever. and lo and behold - that's what i've become. it's changing. one baby step at a time. nothing in the world tastes as good as being thin feels.